The battle rages within me
And despite all hope for yesterdays gone past
I feel that I am all consumed by it's ravages
The victim of a war I cannot win
And then the depression takes hold
I feel that the horsemen ride with him
Reaping the harvest that is my body
My own personal apocalypse awaits
And despite all of these things, I hold peace for tomorrows yet to be
It is hard to bolster the dam against flooding
Vigil held despite all fears of loss
This journey I would not wish upon anyone
To find calm in the storm
Warmth within the winters of our despair
Impossible one would think
But you do not know me
Pax Vobiscum (peace be w
And you think I have broad shoulders?
I can take the weight of the world
But only on tuesday
During normal business hours now don't be silly
You make tears fall softly
And I never know if I am to be Atlas today
These things come so unreal as dreams
And I wake up to wander the world once again
Live for today I am told
Not because to do otherwise would be considered wasteful
But for the challenge of breathing itself
And perhaps the labours of an old greek titan on tuesdays
We can all move mountains if we so choose
There is no myth to the power of mankind's mind
Will of billions to cling to a rock
Call it good despite poor heath over all
But how can one who feels so helpless stand against the coming wave?
One small cry of defiance will be quickly lost to the roar
The greatest weapon so often ignored
So we choose to have an abiding hope in the goodness of others
Rely on that light I can understand
For there is no other way to share love in the shadows
The ride I am taking in this world is by no accident
It is my illusion that I am a passenger in fate
As are we all
There was always excitement around every bend
Each day a new tale to be told
Outside the safety of four walls that held use for nights only
Sunrise would beckon, and we the brave, chased it
You wanted a boy
But I bet I showed you I was as sturdy as any of their kind!
I could do anything you set in front of me Dad
That must have suprised you greatly
I miss you everyday
But maybe more when I see the sunrise
Memories of wandering the woods
Waiting and watching for the chance of game
You know I still have all of those memories?
Even shooting rats in the smallest of spaces
I would do that again in a heartbeat
And I think that would
I know this because that is what comes over me when I think of you
It must be the way of fate to place us together
But it is life that hold us embraced for those moments we have
I have known the role of duty my whole life
You serve our country proudly
But it is your heart that always stays with me
There can be no failure in doing what you must do
That is honor to a pledge you gave
I always know the sacrifices you make for our life
My heart, love and best of all friends in this world
Carry on and do as you must dear one
I will always be here for you to return to
It is said that the journey is what matters the most of travelling
For all that I know in this world
A small amount would be that the eye can be fooled
The mind can play tricks upon us everyday
We but helpless fools dancing on wires
You do know I am angelic?
That all I do here would surely be touched by my grace
Maybe that small innocence would rub off on you lot
Yes that must be it, here to save you all from corruption
The myth is that I am somehow corrupt
Or perhaps there may be horns holding up my halo
To these and other silly rumors I say do not listen
Besides can't you see the wings?
fluffy white feathers
We lived so much this short time together
A soft touch of your hand gave me comfort
And your love still moves my soul to tears
This walk together we had
Darkness may overwhelm your life for a time
And shake you to the foundations of all you know inside
Because you cannot see him
Nor hold that dear man with more than your heart
Forever we know the love of dear ones
Tears flow rivers unending to the heavens
Smile in thinking of him
Though we often pass in flesh
Love itself never fades and passes
No you are not ready for the world beyond this door
And despite of having a will of your own so to speak
You are not an adult
Nor do I want to make one of you just yet
This is not the time to talk of cars
Have you the concept of insurance for such a ride?
Not to mention the dating!
Lord help me if I have to go there again
Stay here for a moment and let me watch you sleep
Like long ago now it seems so content this land of dreams
This one moment let all of that slip past you
Not quite ready for the burdens ahead
As if I could hold you back forever
No you are not ready for the world beyond this door
And despite of having a will of your own so to speak
You are not an adult
Nor do I want to make one of you just yet
This is not the time to talk of cars
Have you the concept of insurance for such a ride?
Not to mention the dating!
Lord help me if I have to go there again
Stay here for a moment and let me watch you sleep
Like long ago now it seems so content this land of dreams
This one moment let all of that slip past you
Not quite ready for the burdens ahead
As if I could hold you back forever
Show me one line where I can see the shame you speak of
A single verse that would have your words make sense
Ah blissful silence
The ignorant judge so fast, they do not know passages
Some are taught this way because it is "right"
Others tread the paths of their forebears blindly
Think before you speak wee sheepy
Not of the correct words, but the hurt they can do
God smiles down on all of us
I really don't think he cares what path we walk
For that is against the free will he set us down here with
Ignore the bleating of the sheep my friend
For they march blindly to their own fate
The battle rages within me
And despite all hope for yesterdays gone past
I feel that I am all consumed by it's ravages
The victim of a war I cannot win
And then the depression takes hold
I feel that the horsemen ride with him
Reaping the harvest that is my body
My own personal apocalypse awaits
And despite all of these things, I hold peace for tomorrows yet to be
It is hard to bolster the dam against flooding
Vigil held despite all fears of loss
This journey I would not wish upon anyone
To find calm in the storm
Warmth within the winters of our despair
Impossible one would think
But you do not know me
Pax Vobiscum (peace be w
Fluffy Doom
Of this is sure dear sister, they are plotting your downfall
Sure the stares do also come with purrs
Anytime you gather more than one cat in a room you have trouble
This has been proven throughout history, if they had a little more ambition they'd be ruling the world now instead of acting like they do
What can you do?
Not much I am afraid, they have you in the iron grasp of their fluffly paws
Accept fate for what it is and give up now
Before they set the snare traps and ,oh yes, the pits with stakes in them they have always been rather nasty
So when you wake up at two in the morning wanting to kill them
Think to yourself
Above the tiers of man's highest structure
The silence of the world draws one fragile hope closer
That here we may dwell in peace at last
Spark of good intent dwells deep within the mind
Reflections of our spirit show the light and dark within us
Be careful of the thoughts of man
Alive forever it seems
Intention to forever live in a heaven of our creation
When one is placed before us already within our hearts
-L
Justice for all
Let me pause once to understand the full of it
Before I carefully set this flaming sword down to rest
To see the you for you
And the problem not so big as it would seem only moments before
Aye it was fate that is sometimes cruel but soft to unite us
To let us walk the same road together if only for a bit
There are times you think you have nothing to give
Only to find it is an ocean of knowledge to another
So here I am still
Watching over my friends from a distance
Caring not to intrude but to simply be there as much as I can be
And help them get through the day to day worries
-L
In times long past this time was held the most dear
Perhaps it is not the actual day He was born
But it is in the hearts of man to make peace on these long cold nights
To be thankful for family at home or across many miles
And wonder at the silence of it all
The stillness of white across fields once golden in hue
Called the season of death long ago it is strangely filled with life and light
Let the sounds of laughter fill even the most dour of mankind
We give presents to remind us that we should always give of ourselves
We believe in Santa if only for one day
Maybe we should always believe with our hearts the other three hundred s
Forever I am destined to rise up against the perils of man
This is not some seeming daydream lost on summer days
But a fight to survive these obstacles placed in my path
Some are destined to heal the weak and comfort the sick
Long ago I turned from any such distinction
Into a world of sacrifice and demand cruelly placed upon sore shoulders
Sometimes I tell myself that the cost outweighs any benefit
Then I see the smile of my Daughter
She cannot be as jaded as I
Nor should I ever share that burden with her
For there is innocence in that smile of pure love
Never should she know this hard road I walk of light and shadow
-L
Christmas strikes us so many places
The day and the season itself we tend to hold dear above all others
But that is only one way to see the world
Among so many others
I think that what makes the concept "Peace on Earth" so dear to us
Is in the including of all faiths and ways of God
But even that would not suffice this diverse humanity
There are those that choose no religion at all
To you, my friends, I say this "You do not have to believe in God to believe in peace"
Come hold hands with us for this cause
Then there will be no hands free to aim guns nor throw grenades
This is my goal, one that sits deep within my heart.
What is yo
Arise pup and face the new sun rising!
Skilled at playing on your fears throughout that long darkness
Leaping at shadows once thinking yourself the fierce war cat
Nay but ye are a kitten in the face of this tide of war
The numbers lay against you and there is no hope for tactics
What do you do when the air itself seems to choke in fire?
Cry valiant knight for this is the last they shall know of thee
For now and your ever there is but one thing in your desire
A strong arm to wield this blooded sword
Mayhap a mask as well to hide the tears that flow freely down your cheeks
For this is the last of it, your demons made flesh have won
N
The echoes of yesterday still sometimes come back to haunt us
Not that it is of gladness or sad tidings from distant lands
History is the teacher of us all
Lend nothing man's nature of destruction
No we should step forward and be as gentle as the lamb himself
Display kindness unto the world and not the war we now know
Raise the banner for peace so that generations after us dwell in harmony
May hope be one quality that lies deepest within our hearts, for without it we are lost.
But what can one person do?
It is merely not enough to hold a candle to the stars and wish
The promise of goodness is more than a silent dream
It is this ba
I can see the haunting that lies within your footsteps
And in the cold of this place the echoes of days not long past
I shall never really understand why you found salvation in glass
What knife could cut so deeply it's scars only fade on death?
I have wandered dark paths before
Never afraid to misplace the sunlight in shadow
Damn me for a fool at times I can still see you in my minds eye
Weak in body, but I think you were so strong in spirit
I remember them telling me you were gone
And the boy of stone crushed from the inside I shed tears for you
As years pass so swiftly now, I think I finally have found your lesson
There is a tim
Far into the winter night
The bitter winds do blow.
The moon shines with silver light
Upon the sparkling snow.
Though dead the Earth from waning sun
And frozen hearts do break,
We rejoice in kindred spirits
For today the sun does wake.
Winter Solstice, the day of Yule,
Celebration all around.
Hailing the living god reborn,
Of love, of life profound.
You want want want what you don't have
no matter if it's the best.
You say "mine mine mine"
and hold it to your chest.
Can you feel feel feel the beggers need
or understand their loss?
Their dreams are thrown to the wind
to satisfy the boss.
You have lived lived lived a life
without financial worries.
But you turn up your nose to those
who are weak and weary.
Do you help help help these people
when you pass them by?
Do you feel compassion
for the one who asks "why"?
You walk walk walk along the busy street
and a begger asks for change.
You reach into your pocket,
a motion you find str
I don't want to deal with you,
with your selfishness and greed.
I wish I could run away,
but I stay and bleed.
There's nothing I can do for you
for you don't do it for me.
I don't know if you will know,
if or when you'll see.
I'm tired of my sacrifice
to ensure I'll have your love.
I am giving up this dream
to seek the one above.
Believe me that I will grieve
because I do love you so,
But you must understand that
this is why I go.
Don't expect me to turn around
for out there is more for me.
When I am finally gone
maybe then you'll see.
Arise pup and face the new sun rising!
Skilled at playing on your fears throughout that long darkness
Leaping at shadows once thinking yourself the fierce war cat
Nay but ye are a kitten in the face of this tide of war
The numbers lay against you and there is no hope for tactics
What do you do when the air itself seems to choke in fire?
Cry valiant knight for this is the last they shall know of thee
For now and your ever there is but one thing in your desire
A strong arm to wield this blooded sword
Mayhap a mask as well to hide the tears that flow freely down your cheeks
For this is the last of it, your demons made flesh have won
N
Current Residence: Colorado, USA Favourite genre of music: Everything except country western which I despise Skin of choice: umm the one I am wearing but badger seems appealing